I fly like paper, get high like planes

If you catch me at the border I got visas in my name, If you come around here, I make 'em all day, I get one down in a second if you wait

For my art project, we have to write about ourselves, creative writing and all. Its so hard. But i've decided to do a buzznet journal on myself for the first time, because then maybe it will be easier to write what i need to; obviously some parts of this will be left out on my art project, because its schoolwork innit. Its all based on what makes us, us, 'past, present and your future dreams'

So here it goes.

Past: 10.02.1994, Born & Bred in Sunderland, Moved to seaham when i was 5 and lived their for 5 years, Acting was a passion to me and i didn't have a care in the world, i could get up on stage and act without getting nervous or scared incase i messed up, but these days that seems to be the case. My life consisted of Horse Riding with my cousin every saturday, singing & dancing lessons on sunday, watching my brother learn tycondo every tuesday night, my best friends at school were Cassie & Ryan, and we'd pretend that the footprints in the small section of concrete on the school field was the devils prints and if we put our feet in them we'd become the devil.. cassie loved putting her feet in them and being 'possessed' by the devil, My next door neighbour Annie became the longest best friend i ever had, 5 years together and the only reason we drifted was because i moved to spain; infact i still speak to her sometimes. We thought we were cool, swearing in the middle of the street at the age of 10, and laughing at the concept of 'sex', boys still had cooties at this point, btw. When i was 3/4, i nearly died from drinking paint out of my old noddy cup, as it was orange and looked like orange juice, and my dad was painting the kitchen. I had to get my stomach pumped and dad shoved his fingers down my throat to make me throw up. Without that move i'd be dead from posioning. I was always scared of the dark, and fireworks scared the shit out of me.

Present: My days consist of loud music, tea & vodka, and i always appreciate cold weather now. I love having colds and just, sitting wrapped up next to the fire, with a hot chocolate, watching a film. I've lived in spain for 4 years, 5 years on August the 18th, and until may last year i believed gibraltar was a rock, not a hometown which i'd fall in love with. Seaham still has my entire heart,  and i live in a world full with tattooed images & screaming speakers, but i never forget to smile. I fail to grasp simple concepts, and get facinated by the smaller things in life. I love you, those words mean nothing to me anymore as i've been lied to so many times. My best friend Lauren should have become part of my past so long ago, but we've stuck together, and we're still unseperable, when we're in the same country that is. I miss her, but its making us stronger living so far apart. 2 years is hard to break. My other best friend Conor is my very own jeremy kyle, only, he has better hair. Jammin gives the best hugs and, she knows what to say and when to say it. 2008 made me realise that life isnt all butterflies and cupcakes. I dont stand for ignorance nor bullshit anymore, and i never think before i speak. I still havent broken a bne in my body, and Bring me the Horizon has a huge place in my heart. Oli sykes and Lady Gaga are both god, and i loved them both before they were famous. Dayle & Spam are my heroes, and im scared of being forgotten. The dark doesnt effect me, as much, anymore. And even though i love winter, Summertime will always be my favourite time of year, i just hate how the sun makes my hair fade, and the cruise will always be my favourite holiday. 'Ahhhh gaaa do do do, push my apple shake the treeee' ;) oyesss.